When I'm feeling blue...

For the first time I'm posting my personal emotion. At this moment of time I feel down...and the song by Simple Plan is playing in my ears...it brings me to tears.

Simple Plan : Welcome to my life

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you

Do you ever want to run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over?

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok

Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work
It was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like

To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life



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Why this song? Maybe because I'm depressed over things that I shouldn't be bothering about as they are out of my hands. I can only try the effort, pray, wish, hope and dream...but only Allah knows what He plans for me. It just the waiting for things to come around feels like a burden I couldn't bear. I know this world doesn't resolved around me alone...but as part of this world I am desparate for my share. I'm talking about my life that doesn't take off the way I plan...again my plan is obviously smaller than the plans that are already written for me.

I can't let myself fall!!! Instead of giving up I need to try my best to lead on this life I'm walking on today...never stop looking for better tomorrow...to be the one I wanna be...to do the things I wanna do...to fulfill the dreams I've been wanting. There are more suffering in this world...Allah don't let me be the one who lost faith...don't let me doubt my being...don't let me regret my living...just don't let me fall...because I don't want to...I want my life to be happy...I want your grace...I want to be happy...and I'm happy when I'm happy coz my world will be a better place to live...and let live...

So emo la...nasib baik dah berbuka...kalau tak sia-sia je puasa tapi failed on the emotional battle to demon inside me. But sometimes this is the only way to reflect my life...to face reality and kill those fantasies. Well looks like I'm heading nowhere with this flow of words full of emotions...so better stop now and look for more worthy topic to post!